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UP&DOWN&ON&ON
04:30
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nothing stays,
not for long, anyway =w=
ive said it before
i'll say it again!
it just goes... and
then comes back
and it always changes
and it's never the same!
and ive never been able
to give it a name (so it's not real?)
i wish it wasn't real, i wish it wasn't real
i'll keep it to myself, it's just how i feel.
it's not real, its all not real
keep it to yourself how HOW you feel
it's not real its all not real
keep it to yourself, YOU CAN DEAL.
and what is that thing in the mirror
what does it want from me
every day its getting thinner
no no no THAT'S NOT MEEE!!
every side i turn on im bruising
every shred i've got left, i'm losing!
aw isn't it so cute and so amusing
if i could stop i SWEAR i would, I'M NEVER CHOOSING
I'M DRIFTING DRIFTING DRIFTING ON
I HATE THIS HATE THESE HATE THESE SONGS
UP AND DOWN AND ON AND ON
UP AND DOWN AND ON AND ON
UP AND DOWN AND ON AND ON
UP AND DOWN AND ON AND ON
UP AND DOWN AND ON AND ON
up and down and on and on ... ....
MANIA!!! IMPRISON ME <3
PUFFY CUTE~ PUREST OF VOLATILITY ^^
DEPRESSION... SET ME FREE...
SELF HARM, AFFECTION, do what you want with me <3
i promise i'll be sweet~
so do what you want with me! :3
i swear i'll go quietly~
please never leave me be!!
without you i'm so lonely...
so please stay here with me...
please, please...
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2. |
nervous
04:32
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i dunno what to say...
i dunno what to do...
im too slow...
can i make it up to you? :<
was it something i did??
was it something i said????
i guess i could be,,
quiet instead... u_u
i'm scared!
and i'm terrified...
that if i fuck it up between us,
you won't say!
and you won't do anything,
because you love me!!
because you-- are too nice!!!
cuz you're too perfect...
and i, i, i...
don't know what i'd do then... ~_~;
won't you tell me how to be?
how can i act naturally??
cuz my nerves get the best of me!!
and i forget how to breathe... >x<
i'm just so nervous!!!!!!
i'm just so afraid!!!!!!
that im working up a debt,,,
that needs to be repaid.......... >o<
every day i'm so nervous!!
try to keep my head above the surface!
i just want to fulfil my purpose!!!!!!
i'm so tired of feeling worthless....
i just want to be to your service!
Fluttershy:
"I'm so sorry for being like this... Sometimes I just find it really hard to know how you're feeling, and that scares me... I'm just so terrified that I've done something to hurt you that I don't remember doing... I'd rather die than live knowing I've hurt you... but please, tell me if I've done something wrong... I'm sorry. I don't know why I'm being like this. Saying this is only making things worse! I'm just so nervous"
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wolf
03:48
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the wolf in the mirror
becomes a little clearer
when you hurt me like you do...
lycanthropic cycles of love <3
is it sent from hell, or from above?
i cant i cant i cant i cant i cant i cant tell!
tail wags, night swoons~
wind howls to the tune ^^
why does it all feel perfect with you, you, you? <33
put your hand in mine /)(\
becoming paws in time
i'll dig my claws into your flesh >:3
i haven't given up yet...
awoo, awoo~~
spend the night with you~
do i, i do!
(love you!)
i do .... awoo~~
the wolf in the mirror~
becomes a little clearer...
when you hurt me like you do... :<
(awoooo!!!)
the wolf in the mirror
becomes a little clearer
when you hurt me like you do
you do ... awoo
awooowowowooo awoo~~~~
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4. |
rainy one
02:58
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i've been falling on rooves, falling on leaves...
falling on branches, falling on streets!
i evaporate, i dissipate ((owo))
on or beyond the horizon, i'll patiently wait.
and i symbolise pain! and you can't retain,
the times i fall down, on skyscrapers, on cranes!!
on the city, from the *stars*
on all the people, all their cars >:D
and on into the drains and I AM THE RAIN!!
but you can't have sun without rain...
some say it's worth the pain,
but the pain is what's important!
with every drop, something new is gained!!
and i don't care if the people hide!!!!
and i don't care, they can go inside!!! >:3
cuz sometimes it needs to rain!
to remind you of the beauty that comes with pain uwu
i'm the storm you didn't see coming,
and i'm the rain you get in midsummer!
i'm the storm you didn't see coming,
and i'm the rain you get in midsummer...
and i'm the one that makes autumn leaves rot!!
and i'm the one you hated then forgot,
and i'm the one that makes autumn leaves rot!
and i'm the one you hated then forgot...
i've been falling on rooves, falling on leaves... u.u
falling on branches, falling on streets...
i evaporate, i dissipate........
on or beyond the horizon, i'll patiently wait~
i'll patiently wait
i dissipate
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5. |
day of the year
02:50
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smoke lifts off the ash tray~
smell of smoke on your pillow <3
and feeling like a sunday... </3
you're weeping like a willow... :(
life gets kinda mundane :/
feeling better or just worse? u_u
it's just another monday...
and for what it's worth,
i'll come down from a migraine > ^ <
ibruprophen to swallow,
always tired on a tuesday...
plenty hours left to wallow... /)_(\
and on a wednesday... and on a thursday...
you know, you know, you know, e.e
reckless, i'll surrender my day!
and i'll be anxious by then...
like a addict on a friday,
i'll turn another bend~ xwx
i wanted to ask you sometime....
won't you be my friend?~
maybe we could spend some time,
together this weekend? :3
it'll catch up to you sometime!!
i don't wanna be good sometimes xox
i just wanna feel worse ;n;
i don't wanna see you sometimes /).(\
i don't wanna hear a word /)>_<(\
i don't wanna be your sunshine /).o )
i just wanna feel hurt >m<
i don't wanna be an angel.......
i'd rather be the worst
i'd rather be the worst!
manic on a sunday,,
tired on a monday,
hurting on a tuesday,
tired on a wednesday,,
i see you today,
i don't wanna be here!!...
got me feeling so weird,,,
i just wanna leave it!!
manic on a sunday...
tired on a monday........
hurting on a tuesday......
tired on a wednesday........
i see you today!!
i don't wanna be here!!!!!!
got me feeling so weird.,,
i just wanna leave it..
fucked up on a friday
why'd it have to be today
clubbing on a saturday... night
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6. |
onwards and upwards
03:30
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keep talking (talk to me)
never giving up <3
keep walking
things are looking up!
keep on moving forwards
tho it feels in vein!!!
the light at the end of the..
tunnel's not a train ^^;
so long as it's forwards,
it can only be right
it's just onwards and upwards
for all nine lives =^.^= ~
don't, don't give up on
don't don't give up on your
self don't give up now! <3
so easy to think...
it lasts forever,
you ask yourself...
when does it get better?
pick yourself up,
c'mon pull yourself together!
you try so hard
oh you're not lesser!!! <3333
it's not all wrong, ( nwn)/)(=w= )
just do what you can <3
maybe write a song? <33
focus on your hands!
ground yourself
just don't look at your arm!!!! O.O
so you feel unwell?
no, you're fine. you're calm!!
do you think you're better off alone?~
do you think you're better off alone?~
do you think you're better off alone?~~
do you think you're better off alone~?
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7. |
dance it off (bunny hop)
02:51
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hey bunny, can i tell you a secret~
i've been finding it so hard to keep it...
together, i don't know what to do
i wanna melt into you <3
i don't know what to do...
i just wanna get through it!
i'm scared bunny... i wanna let go of all this shit :(
i'm scared bunny, i wanna let go, i wanna...
i can do it! I'LL...
get faster get better
keep hopping along!
i'll do it get through it
it won't be too long~ ^^
keep on it, a comet!
soaring fast, so strong!!
i'll pace it, i'll ace it!
when it all goes wrong! :D
bunny hop! bunny hop!
from left to right~
bunny hop! never stop!
all through the night
dance it off! dance it off!
bunny do it right!!~ <3
shake that tail, never bail
all thhru the night!!
bunny hop! bunny hop!
from left to right~
bunny hop! never stop!
all through the night
dance it off! dance it off!
bunny do it right!!~ <3
shake that tail, never bail
all thru the night >w<
heart aches will come,
let them pass through,
you're in control,
we all love you <3
when your eyes well,
tears start falling,
drop me a line...
thanks for calling <3333
salty cheeked i'll hold ur hand
you know i am, i know you can
the sun still hasn't risen yet
let's live while we're young and don't forget
this! life we lead isn't healthy
this life we lead isn't right
but hey, at least my bunny we can dance it off every night!! \o/
bunny dance with me
hold my paws and bounce so free~
kinetic kinship hold me close <3
don't you know, bunny i love you most <3333
you're like an angel but so much kinder!
dreamed of a girl never thought i would find her
but now you're dancing in front of me
my bunny girl, you set me free~<3
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u said the world is sunny the world is bright
yeah i think thats funny and i think ur right... ewe
everything is so beautiful; everything is fine!!!
everything goes well until its mine >:D
everywhere i go and every day~
i see the people fucking their time away!! o///o
take some pills or have a smoke :i
spend time with ur family, take a toke~
just the things we do to get by~~~~!
without spending a day in bed... hoping to die!!!!!
all we can do is talk and chat~
about everything and nothing, how about that? ;3
o these days we're all going crazy!
these days our mums would call us lazy...
but what are they doing that we aren't??? :<
everyone's lives look stupid at a first glance!!
oh, oh, oh, inconsequential............
you're always trying your best, and for what? >.>
ur a cog in the system, u do as you're taught!! u.u
don't you wanna get on out and just be free?!!?!
i see your insides are rotting, trying so hard just to be...
just to be!
just to be!
just to be something good,
just to be!
just to be!
just to be as you should!
you'll always be inconsequential...
you'll never fulfil your potential...
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9. |
chalk
01:57
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i've always been a little slow :(
always felt i could've been good...
always been a little i don't know :?
if i'm able at all, i know i should... umu
deal with it,
it won't last forever
believe it,
you can get better...
deal with it,
it won't last forever
believe it,
you can get better~
you can get better?
my body's crumbling like chalk X m X
i try to run but i can only walk!!!! DX
sometime this glass shell will shatter
would you even care? would it even matter? ;(
///
i've always been a little slow
always felt i could've been good
always been a little i don't know
if i'm able at all, i know i should
///
my body's crumbling like chalk
i try to run but i can only walk
i try but i can barely even talk
i can barely even
my body's crumbling like chalk
i try to run but i can only walk
i try but i can barely even talk
///
(if i'm able at all i know i should)
but i can barely even talk... :x
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10. |
lost...
03:26
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do you know who i am? (claymaw)
do you know what that means?
means i can hold your hand ^w^
means i can haunt your dreams >:D
do you see what i see? do you take it on board? <3
does it make you angry? does it make you wish you did more? >.>
do you know what i know? did you see what i saw....?
does it make it hard to breathe? does it still feel raw!?
are you lost? are you found? o.o
did you even think of turning around? <_<
becoming one, no longer halves of two ._.)(._.
we lost ourselves, i lost myself in you!!
i just lose myself in people... /)_(\
like i lost myself in you... <33
if i call it love or something evil </3
it's not what i need to do!
do you know who i am????
do you know what that means?!
means i could be a better man....
means i could get clean,
do you know what i am? oO_Oo
do you know who i mean????
can i be someone better?
i just wanna be free.
i know you're wondering- where to go?...
you're pondering- you don't know.... :{
nobody else can tell you so
no one will tell you where to go...
when the rain turns to snow...
no one will tell you where to go...
you gotta make it on your own.
keep on keepin on <3
you can do it, you can try! <33
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i was in your dream last night... <3
i came to tell you that i don't know anything... xwx
and i think it's starting up again...
and i was in your dream last night....
i came to tell you everything
tastes so bad!!!! xP
it tastes so strong!!! DX
my skin is tied to your skin,... (my skin is tied to your skin)
so everything you touch, i touch <3
and i'm rolling in my grave again..
it comes in waves, i peel off my skin x.x
my voice is stuck to your voice! (my voice is tied to your voice!)
so everything i say.. belongs to youu..
(belongs to you)
my head is stuck to your head
so everything that i think belongs to you
(belongs to you)
and every song and every rhyme, nothing is mine
i'll give it all to you, i don't need anything
and i'm never feeling good again
back, and back, and back, and back again
back, and back, and back, and back again (it hurts when i peel off my skin)
back, and back, and back, and back again (i don't believe in anything)
back, and back, and back
back, and back, and back, and back again
back, and back, and back, and back again (it hurts when i peel off my skin)
back, and back, and back, and back again (i'm never feeling good again)
back, and back, and back (and i hope you win)
back, and back, and back, and back again
back, and back, and back again (it hurts when i peel off my skin)
back, and back, and back again (i don't believe in anything)
back, and back, and back, and back
back, and back, and back, and back again (i had a dream you sang my song <3)
back, and back, and back, and back again (you always sing it wrong...)
back, and back, and back, and back again (you always sing it wrong...)
back, and back, and back, and back again(i had a dream you sang my song <3)
back, and back, and back, and back again (you always sing it wrong...!)
back, and back, and back, and back again (you always sing it wrong...!!!!!!!!)
back, and back, and back, and back
and back, and back, and back, and back
and back, and back, and back, and back
and back, and back again
back, and back, and back, and back
and back, and back, and back, and back
and back, and back, and back, and back
and back, and back, and back again
back, and back, and back, and back
and back, and back, and back, and back
and back, and back, and back, and back
and back, and back, and back, and back
and back, and back, and back, and back
and back, and back, and back, and back
and back, and back, and back, and back
and back, and back, and back again
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12. |
upward spiral
06:48
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